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Monday, May 12, 2008

The Family

Over the hills and far away,
By a brook a thatched hut,
A very few knew, There did stay,
A small content family,
They were four, but,
Clung as one, Each other's company,
Swimming in their fish-bowl,
Never there were whiter souls,
They'd live and die for each other,
Would kill to shield another,
Such fierce affection never was known,
Still by a brook they lived,
They reaped only what they sown,
And sang as they reaped,
Gleeful and gay as they talked,
Merry was the word for them!

To ward off the evil eye,
The lady she'd put aside,
A little prayer for the one,
With whose grace, She had borne a son,
The little boy, The apple of their eyes,
Loved by everyone just the same,
Got presents bigger than his size,
When his father went out for game,
The head, The sturdy man,
With a heart bigger than himself,
Showered love, But dealt with a firm hand,
Holding them closer than himself,
Then the lovely bud of a girl,
Would've blossomed into the prettiest flower,
If not the spite of the world,
Had shown its impeccable power!

The little one wandered on his own,
A very fine glad day,
With all the thickets overgrown,
He soon lost his way,
Still adventurous, Appropriate to his age,
Farther and farther he went,
Till he met a cur in rage,
Looked him from where the road bent,
He ran as fast as his little legs,
Could carry him around,
On his heel the foaming beast,
But the path to the hut was found,
Then the dog got him square,
Around his tiny ankle,
Then though the cur was scared,
The damage was done!

The family wept bitter tears,
Only death could help the little boy,
But his death none could bear,
But were left with no choice,
None made as much as a noise,
As the rustling leaves in a breeze,
In a moment it was all decided,
All their lives would they seize,
His favourite porridge was made,
Furtive good-byes they bade,
And then the man, Mixed the venom,
It sweetened their last supper,
They dined amidst all merry,
Even at death they would cling as one,
And now aboard their last ferry,
Their last journey they undertake.........

Fall from Grace.......

Reminiscent of past glory, Her eyes twinkle,
Pores into the remnant ruins, The faded periwinkle,
Gouges out those lovely eyes, The glorious past,
Too bad like the wind, It flew away too fast!

All the bling that clung, She had sashayed,
Like poisoned spears they pierce now, The words she said,
With unbelievable spite was spurned, Advances of affection,
Warded off were true loves, With immaculate precision!

Cloudy and misty her eyes, The Sun sets,
On what she was, And never would be,
No flicker of hope, No light, Her dilapidated heart,
Weeps to its content, In this cold breeze.

Realisation dawned, It had taken too long,
She waited so much, For prudence to hop along,
Content that her conviction, and a bit of hope,
Remains, Still strong, At this end of the rope!

Sentimental and philosophical, As she narrates,
The story of her life, She says,
'This is the truth, Oh, human race!
No doubt there'll be, A fall from Grace.'.

Monday, May 05, 2008

Open Your Eyes

Lying in front of me, Yet so far,
From each other we are,
Still the souvenirs of good times,
Flashes across my weary mind,
I touch your face with a shaky finger,
And say, ' Open you eyes and talk to me'.

Fuss over minuscule tiffs we made,
And meaningless goodbyes we bade,
Over a cup we'd forget it all,
Brings me to tears, This cold breeze,
Won't you catch me, If I'm to fall,
Won't you open your eyes and talk to me.

Soothsayers, There are too many,
But this a pain, Too hard to console,
On a trail of tears, I wait for an epiphany,
On a thorny bed I lie and roll,
Through the tears I manage to mumble,
Won't you open your eyes and talk to me.........

The Fair Waif

Cries of hunger from the fair waif,
Twisting of arms and legs about,
No one around, None to tuck him safe,
None to laugh, None to smile for that million-dollar pout.....

For a very special friend.....

Among the riper fruits on the branches of my life,
A nightingale with the sweetest melody,
Amidst storms the stalk did thrive,
The song still pleases, amid all this cacophony.

With sky the limit, We flew long,
Stunted wings spread to the furthest,
Closer than ever, Not exceeding a furlong,
Till the aura reached its brightest.

With the wheel of time burns it all,
From the axle to the spindle,
Arise we might never after the fall,,
But assured am I my love won't dwindle.

Remorse and relief all at once,
God forbid all my love be spurned,
Run I may like the zephyr runs,
I sigh in relief, The lesson was learnt.

Staying not a second longer,
From the instant we take us for granted,
Cherish even the times yonder,
Remember the journey, Not just where we landed......

Sunday, May 04, 2008

Mother Lament

Tearing a raw piece of her flesh apart,
He carries on, A song on his lips, Hope in his heart,
Into the flame, A million plans to foil,
Voluntarily! That surprises me, For the discrimination of soil!

It was said to be, A gem of an occupation,
Of a few among the elite population,
The blood they'd spill would be over pages,
To be immortalised like the great sages!

Among the bravest, He fought with all his might,
For contumacious reasons, Supposedly his birthrights,
His comrades gone high above in wisps of smoke,
Like a single bullet scatters the humongous flock!

Her wait for Him like Atlas' wait for the end,
No glimmer of hope, No light at the bend,
The glorious burden, A tad more her nerves could bear,
Her fingernails dig deep into her flesh, She's overcome with fear!

The true son of soil, Marches till he breaks,
Her hapless cries resound over stoic lakes,
Futile furtive glances at the hand of God,
She is dismissed without as much as a nod!

To them, He just another unfortunate fool,
He gave up everything as their expensive wager's tool,
To her, he, a part of her soul,
She silently weeps away the death of her foal.........

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Brains in a pickle!

Brainwashed! On smooth soapy stones they lay,
Metaphorical blows to their head they take,
No, not a shadow, to an illusion they pray,
Oaths and promises to wash away their sins,
And unmentionable things an illusion brings!

A sacrifice of blood and sweat the enslaved pays,
Now showered with lauds of falsest praise,
I laugh aloud, at the beliefs they fancy,
They hail me a blaspheme, but mercy!
I'm human! I wish everyone like me was awake!

The Downtrodden Rises

Right at the bottom of the class,
The wretched little kid belonged,
Innumerable jabs and pokes he let pass,
Just him and his old broken set of crayons,
Solitude brewing a great big storm,
Sheets and sheets painted on with red,
No hint of emotion on his sleeve was worn,
Resound deep inside the smarting words they said!

A silhouette lurks beneath his wounded heart,
None but himself can hear it beat,
Stares at the subliminal little work of art,
At the brink of breakdown deeply breathes,
None left now he finds himself to blame,
The deep deceit in his misery he fails to see,
All he did was bow low as ever in shame,
Only a miracle now would set him free!

At the dusk of his oppression he lies,
On the grass looking up at the sky,
No escape from his torments however he tries,
He wonders how it would be just to die,
With none to mourn, none to weep,
No epitaph on his cold lonely grave,
No flower to adorn him when he's asleep,
Can't for a bit of warmth this cold man crave?

With spite and hate in his cold bosom,
He walks away, a sense of urgency in his gait,
He swears to tackle this all consuming spasm,
The hour is high, got not a second to waste,
When detest and deceit is all you've seen,
You're not to blame, You're no more human,
When none care for who you are, where you've been,
Treated like a man-devouring caiman.

With a flick of his wrist a man is slain,
His throat slit with the sharpest of knives,
Sharpened on his own rough trysts with pain,
He steps over the man, more lives to seize,
BEWARE BLOODY SWINES, YOU COME NEXT!
He laughs with a wicked gleam in his eye,
Another one goes down as the world stares vexed,
Scared to death, they know they'll die!

Amazing how changes arise at the blink,
From a milk-feasting cat to a blood-drawing feline,
With the gore adorning him like bling,
And he carries on with no regret, over rugged terrain!

My Love

Holding on to me like the night sea embraces the sun,
Emotions including juxtaposing of sheer pain and agony,
Sears of pain like rain on windshields of cars that run,
Like residents of a stamped upon and destroyed ant colony!

Dissolving in depressing gloom as salt does in fresh water,
I lie awake on my back looking at the stars and ponder,
What went wrong,I try to get to the root of the matter,
Where did I err, It still don't ring a bell and I just wonder.....


My Will

At perch on a mere anthill,
Looking down upon all the rest,
The ones I held close, Now seem so far,
It's not thou, but the power of my will,
A hurdle to cross, still cold in my breast,
I fail to see thy warm heart,
While thou shinest like a lonely star,
And my conviction still holds us apart........

The Studded Sky!

Look! The stars shine like lost gems,
I dream of floating about the milky-way,
And that may, put to rest all my whims,
And might put away all my crazy puns!
I glance once more at the night sky,
Tintinnabulations of joy and despair at once,
Lying on the grass I look and sigh,
The things they say to lead me astray!

Lust

Lured by the aroma of the forbidden fruit,
The modern temptress loses it all to fate!
Beguiled by shame, now covered with soot,
She becomes the victim from being the bait!

Thursday, April 03, 2008

First Sight(Not Love)

Oh God! I know what's lovelier than the loveliest flower,
The moment she walked right in front of my eyes,
More fascinating than the surge of Power,
Ask any layman sound, Any layman Wise!
No, 'Tis not love, not even any care,
But every bone aches to know how she fares!

Hail, Holy Mother of all Art!

Oh! Holy Mother of all Art!
My only truly God, thou Art!
A ruby on the bejewelled crown,
Of the fruits of Civilisation,
Ages back, Thy seeds were sown,
Our fertile minds fill with elation!
Life before thou, trace to the unimaginable,
Ward off those times as of the unspeakables,
Among the fewer joys of the Modern World,
Thou rest, Still afloat and no wonder!
With even all the spite unfurled,
And I, Indignant, I do ponder,
Ignorance is Bliss, They say, But,
This, Chokes me to the gut,
I'm to hail thou in words,
But the cliches and thou thyself fail me now!
Thou art flying high, amid the Whitest Birds,
I look, I smile, I hail, I bow!

Friday, March 28, 2008

The Butterfly

With a leap off the leaf,
My heart skips a beat,
A million colours woven into,
This minuscule treat!

Frivolous with the trademark flight,
It dances in the sky,
And I wait sly like a fox,
With a gleam in my eye!

Waiting on the sly,
I can't help but adore,
Nature's palette on its wings,
I can't help wanting even more!

On my ears sounds I cannot hear,
Of pain and of captivity,
As my fingers clasped on the wings,
An epitome of nature's subtlety!

For years and years,
A once frivolous monarch lay,
In between papers,
Now faded and unable to play!

As I sleep, sometimes I do see,
The woven colours of glee,
I twist and turn but I can't go back,
Nor from these memories can I flee!

I just wish I'd left it
, Watched for an hour more,
At its frivolous best,
The colours would have given me hope,
Like they do to the rest!

The Citizen

Clasps of lightning uproot the trees,
As a wicked storm replaces the breeze,
A thousand lives a second they seize,
And in the eye of the storm, an innocent man!

He with his troubles all left behind,
To his kin and his duties he did bind,
And Alas! What he did finally find,
He was the scape-goat, of a con-master plan!

Clangs of metal on metal does sound,
The last of his kin were never found,
For a man who to all his duties was bound,
He was bound to die, so short, his lifespan!

At the corner of my eye, a tear,
What all did the poor man bear,
Through the nation a longish sear,
And me and my heart, Salute the brave man..........

Last Laugh(Holy Wars)----> The first two lines are from Megadeth's Holy Wars.....Punishment Due, written by Dave Mustaine/Megadeth.

Brother will kill brother, Spilling blood across the land,
Killing for religion, Something I don't understand!

While a brethren writhes in pain, the bystanders they Laugh,
And then the bystanders writhe, and the tortured get their Laugh!

And then I do Laugh, at the Laughable spectacle,
And the elders they frown, at their Wisdom's pinnacle!

Buried alive their souls, They call themselves whole,
and I Laugh again, as on broken glass they roll!

In my mind a cleaner Land, it's just a dream I find,
That's all it'll ever be, a Heaven in my mind.........

Thursday, February 21, 2008

She'll come! ( She already did, My Niece!)

Like the sun after a rainy night,
Would rise above a winged angel,
Thro' the thickets a beam of light,
A fat vein on a hypodermic needle,
Like the scent of rained upon soil,
Like the sweet sweat of toil,
A glimmer of hope after a fall,
Anticipation of walk after the crawl,
Like a whiff of a freshly mowed lawn,
With high spirits and subtle emotions,
SHE'LL COME!

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

The Pedigree......

Mere fragments of earth than next of kin,
Vagrants of the wily valley of sin,
Solace in death's breasts they find,
Traitors with both eyes gone blind,
Cowards in frilly cowboy suits,
Weeds around humanitarian roots,
The offsprings of a ghastly libido,
Inbreeding of repugnance without much ado,
Well fed on the devil's bosom,
Plague and Malice, they do blossom.

Once upon a time an ambitious king,
Misery and death was all he'd bring,
Smitten by possesions way too earthly,
The blade of his slew millions quietly,
A gilded sword with a crimson hilt,
Tears of bereavement was all it spilt,
And guilt came, it did come on time,
To fill his head with his blasphemous crimes,
And then from him flew the whitest dove,
The lesson was learnt, the tyrant learned to love!

Mouldy Souls and Mouldier Deeds,
Like an unbred mongrel breeds,
And again the gilded sword with a crimson hilt,
Grazes, and the twigs they wilt,
Reminiscent of the deadly twins,
Enough is the thought to make one wince,
Tho' with the earth gyrates the wheel of time,
None will erase the ghastly crime,
But above the oppresser, rose the oppressed,
Just Desserts! And our mind rested!

Powerless except the power of morals,
Waitin' for the moment to get etched in murals,
A gamut and myriad of twisted Coitus,
and its frenzy wrath sets upon us,
Cradling the inner child of fear,
The clock ticks and our time draws near,
Gloom Pain and Grief pervaded the air,
As a billion pair of eyes longed for an heir,
A tide of hope rises and We all cry,
Kneel down and Pray, hands held to the Sky........

Good Mornin'!

Oh! With what glory the sun dost shine,
Ochre-tinted rays on my mornin' face,
All prayers to Him, the pleasure's mine,
The warmth of love, the feel of lace!

Soaked with dew are my feet,
Wafts the fragrance and what bliss!
Ah! This feelin' nothin' can beat,
Jus' her touch's all I miss!

Perseverance

'My heart's ablaze', the kid he says,
and he begins the race, in the horizon, the Impossible,
His muscles tighten, his spirits brighten,
but inside still broken, he affirms it's plausible.

Subdued by pain, he tries in vain,
but until he's slain, he'll flap hard his wings,
He may die tryin', but he ain't cryin',
he still keeps flyin', and see what his fortune brings!

It was his fate, that all his hate,
became his own bait, and into the dark sea, he went,
No doubt he was brave, he took it to his grave,
And my heart does crave, jus' wish he wasn't that bent......

Alternative to the last stanza:

Ah! Look what his fate, did to all the hate,
he stood at heaven's gate, up above the clouds he went,
He was so brave, a thousand lives he did save,
A million hearts they crave, they swear he was God-sent!

Console and Conquer......

Cryin' over the echo of a swansong,
Still ringin' bells deep down inside,
Eyes are numb, It has been so long,
I'm weathered n distraught on the flipside.

Memories of times which seem so far,
The days I miss like none today,
I feel so low, I feel so sour,
Missin' that smile which made my day.

Every single day has atleast a dog,
Is the way we console ourselves,
And till our Satan's day we slog,
Only to be ambushed n taken down ourselves........

Monday, February 11, 2008

The Tribe

Tumultuous turmoil through the tribe,
A speck of light in the grey, gloomy sky,
An airborne foreigner strengthens the vibe,
They know, the Greyer men they sigh!

Till the time of the great king,
No trouble no pain did ever spring,
Now the once-strong men they abide,
Long gone the chatter of their child's chides.

Sigh and lie, then cry and die,
The pattern of Life in sturdy moulds,
The harder they toil, the harder they try,
They'll still be Wisps of smoke above the clouds.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

The Unforgiven.......

The raging sun on the baked skin,
The little beasts with throats parched,
Far away a nightingale sings,
Seems just for those souls wretched.

On the top the cruel master,
All with poise and noise and laughter,
Urges the tired man to walk faster,
And the Unforgiven collapses.

Septic wounds and singeing bruises,
Caked dry with sand and blood,
Wounded souls with none the vices,
Lying asleep in the mud.......

Vidarbha......

Wilted plants in the cracked ground,
With showers refusing to come around,
A countless lives gone without a sound,
Tears and blood wet the barren ground.

Under the tin-roof the heaving breasts,
Crying over the children's wrecks,
Hitting the stolid earth with tightened fists,
As the virgins they slash their wrists.

Warring life itself for the daily bread,
It's harder done than earlier said,
And the lines on the palm the astrologer read,
Long erased in the wretched graves......

Friday, November 30, 2007

Memories.........(Written by my father!)

A little boy with,
the whole world in his eyes,
stood near the doors,
waiting for someone who cares.

Heard the feeble sound of a bike,
from a distance, joyous ever,
pressing his face on the door,
eagerly awaiting them forever.

Eyes glitter, smiles blossom,
there came his parents,
who left him in the morning,
and returning in the evening.

That moment was real, his
expressions still haunt,
though years roll out, his
parents' memories are alive....

Monday, November 05, 2007

Goin' Down.....

Constraints and rules bind me down,
And barbed wire around my heavy crown,
In the cracked mirror, I see a clown,
I lose the grip, I'm goin' down.....

Weird actions and weirder thoughts,
Wasted fears and sinister plots,
Pointless quarrels and weary fights,
And lust of unattainable heights.....

Weepin' bloody tears deep down inside,
Actin' calm and composed outside,
This life I lead, a stage-show, drama,
Spittin' in blasphemy like a Llama.....

Like a bride in a bloody gown,
I reach out but I'm goin' down.......

I'm to blame......

Facin' bloody hell enroute to heaven,
All my spirits and friends I lose,
The fiery words taken and given,
And the god-damn emotions runnin' loose.

And sweat breaks on the brow,
As I try to calm the storm within,
Never knew somethin' this low,
Could spring from me, deep within.

For esoteric reasons I lose my mind,
Hangin' by the last twig it seems,
These lousy emotions, a whole new find,
Losin' out to these razor-sharp whims.

Unforgiven, as I do feel,
EVen with so much warmth around,
No-one but I'm to blame,
To put my tender hands into the flame......


Tuesday, October 30, 2007

The Countryside.......

Fragrance of a thousand lilies, 
Wafting through the air,
Hovering wasps with bulging bellies, 

Hum and they don't care,

Swaying with the biting zephyr, 
Ears of corn they sing,
And I dance away with great fervour, 

And gladness it does bring!

O'er the rounded rocks, 

Gurgles past the healing river,
A silent assassin does lurk, 

Big eyes, gave him the giver,

And in the overgrown thickets, 
Slithers past the fanged beast,
And with the music of the crickets, 

It gathers up a feast!

Down came the sweet showers, 

Feeding rain as some say,
Dance and sing the young lovers, 

All their worries at bay,

The intoxicating smell of soil, 
Rises into the grey sky,
Rewards all the sweat and toil, 

And the farmers they cry!

Calm pleasant and serene, 

Is my countryside,
All joyous, all humane, 

Till the green horizon wide,

With all the humming hornets, 
And all the singing birds,
There'll be my last nest, 

I'll sleep, amidst drowning words.......

Thursday, October 25, 2007

The Struggle.....

Gettin' back at the bastards again,
All my confidence I regain,
Maybe it's wrong, Maybe it's right,
I don't give a damn, I'll fight,
Tears and emotions may overflow,
I can't cry, Can't bow low,
Then come frustration and knowledge of fear,
But it'll be done for my near n dear,
Runnin' to the bottomless abyss,
Cries of agony and scatterin' like mice,
On the putrid winds I'll fly,
Over the mountains, But I don't know why,
Like a metal spear on a broken heart,
I'll pounce down to whom I lost,
Bruised and broken, As I many seem,
A sentimental fool, When I dream,
Emoting the bruises deep within,
Waiting for the tears to sink in,
But 'Grrr...' roars the lion inside,
And 'Pow!' scatters the nimble outside,
See, How fickle is the mind,
Changes rise above the sands of time,
And there come the bastards again,
Tryin' to wash their sins benign,
And weak, as we maybe now,
But strong are the feelings, How
are we goin' to hold our kin,
Close to our heart, without sin,
Definitely time for a revolution,
Motivation, Attribution and Retribution.......

Monday, October 15, 2007

Innocent Musings

I said, let there be gloom,
Let me believe cows jumping over the moon,
Of crystal balls n Santa Claus,
I hold little tid-bits I cherish,
And then, a funeral passes by,
Brings all the lies and I cry.

Smitten by sights near and dear,
And transparent ghosts I fear,
You say, to err is human,
Let me do what I care!
Let me do a little good turn,
For, it maybe the time to burn.

From straight down inside I pretend,
To be the one I adore, Lament,
when the river of sorrows bursts,
And in Him, let me trust,
Short, as maybe my time,
But let me strive and make it rhyme!

For,
Who knows, it maybe the swansong,
For all the right maybe all the wrong!

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

The love remains......

Deep down inside, my stream of hope,
Becomes jus' a trickle, and flows down the slope.

The single, last drop of power,
Evaporates, leavin' my spirits lower.

In my mind, the river of tranquility,
Dries up, and destroys the lush vicinity.

And the ragin' sea of my strength,
Becomes barren and lifeless throughout its length.

And I, thank him for the oodles of love,
My last resort, my treasure-trove..........

The healin' rain.......

In the blood-red skies,
Rises the smell of burnt flesh,
Frantic little human hearts,
Plummet into the bottomless abyss,
Cries of fear and pain within,
There's chaos in the noisy sepulchre,
Ah! Cry a thousand hearts,
Waiting for the healin' rain......

What's in the heart of hearts,
No one's gonna understand,
Full of evil and ugly warts,
With all emotions going bland,
A thousand hearts torn into shreds,
Jus' a second was all it took,
Ah! Cry a billion hearts,
Waitin' for the healin' rain......

Red River.......

The breeze bears a sepulchral air,
The pain within, more than we can bear,
The waves lashing at our feet,
Brings the worst fear we're gonna meet,
Where, is the healing love??
The view, that makes us go wow!

He, made the miracle of birth,
The grief which came with cruel mirth,
The air-borne castles come crashin' down,
And tears stain the bloody crown,
This bloody bloody battle-field,
Weapons these arms did never wield.

Time brings down the mayhem,
We forget even what brought 'em,
Unlike those numb broken hearts,
Pierced thro' with venomous darts,
Each tear in the stained ground,
Like salt on the open wound.

Red River, flowin thro' the town,
Red River, floodin' our minds,
Red River, sweepin' away the stain,
Red River, over the sands of time......

Untitled.......

You're still there in these dreams,
Takin' my breath away,
A body sweet like cream,
Spellbound, what can I say!

It's all jus' in my head,
Still, I lose my cool,
As I lie awake in bed,
And I prove myself a fool!

As my eyes seek reality,

The goddess disappears,
Her head held in vanity,
And a known silhouette appears!

Tired and speechless I lie,
With covers all over me,
A single tear escapes my eye,
I know what's it gonna be!

I wash it down the sink,
Calm and cool I get,
And I gave a wink,
In the mirror, when my eyes met!


Sunday, April 08, 2007

My Utopian Belle..........

Jus' one glimpse to kindle the flame,
Bet everyone here feels the same,
As we all so covertly express ourselves,
She sways and swirls with profound glee,
And we in our visions change into elves,
Bet u can't find people to disagree.........

She's so sweet and sober, unlike the winds of October,
I want to be with her, but my vision seems to blur,
Thinking of the skies above, she's like a white dove,
I'm perched atop an ant-hill, with miles above to fulfill...........

Jus' one glimpse to kindle the flame,
Bet everyone here feels the same,
That delicate hand held by another swain,
An avalanche of reactions, I try to entertain,
Rage, fury and hatred and deeper emotions,
Forceful as the cruelest and deepest oceans..........

She's so sweet and sober, unlike the winds of October,
I want to be with her, but my vision seems to blur,
Thinking of the skies above, she's like a white dove,
I'm perched atop an ant-hill, with miles above to fulfill...........



A boy's dream............

Peeping thro' the nearby parapet,
Looking at the neighbour's daughter,
Who's in all bliss and laughter,
And his imagination begins to fret!

This is all about the fire and ice,
In the young lil' boy's eyes,
Teeming with life and blood,
As it very definitely should,
He wants to, but he can't scream,
This is every lil' boy's dream.........

Sitting on the couch in solitude,
Thinking of the hiked up skirt,
Drenched with sweat is his shirt,
In all this make-believe altitude!

This is all about the fire and ice,
In the young lil' boy's eyes,
Teeming with life and blood,
As it very definitely should,
He wants to, but he can't scream,
This is every lil' boy's dream.........

Dreaming about everything in peace,
The upholstery of the room comes in mind,
Wanting to be there from the rind,
He passes out with real ease!

This is all about the fire and ice,
In the young lil' boy's eyes,
Teeming with life and blood,
As it very definitely should,
He wants to, but he can't scream,
This is every lil' boy's dream.........

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Spread your wings and fly away..........

Spread your wings and fly away,
Into the realm of the clouds,
For, Who knows, When mankind,
would be cast, into ever-binding moulds.

Spread your wings and fly high,
Be nothing, but a speck in the horizon,
For, Who knows, That might be your fate,
In this tainted land, my friend!

Spread your wings and soar above,
All the picturesque mountains and meandering streams,
For, Who knows, They might be nothing,
But, excavations beneath the sands of time.

Spread your wings and flap them hard,
Rekindle the sense of independence,
For, Who knows, Till when it'll last,
Only to be knaved, and the clock ticks....................

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Wreath of destruction..............

As darkness engulfs me,
I feel bad, I feel sad, I feel god-damn high,
As I get my feelings back,
I feel pain, I feel heat, I feel god-damn high,

This is the wreath of destruction,
That I'm wearing,
This is the wrath of fornication,
That I'm facing...........

As I think of her,
I feel hate, I feel heat, I feel god-damn hot,
As I think of all I've done,
I feel low, I feel shame, I feel god-damn hot,

This is the wreath of destruction,
That I'm wearing,
This is the wrath of fornication,
That I'm facing...........

As day takes over,
I feel light, It feels bright, I feel god-damn good,
As the light shines,
I feel warm, I feel right, I feel god-damn good,

Burn, the wreath of destruction,
Ambush, the wrath of fornication............

Friday, September 15, 2006

Last One Standing.......

Where have I been lately?
What is it that I can't see?
Couldn't I have returned safely?
Why can't I be, Where I want to be?

I'm the last one to move,
Retracing every move,
Surviving every beating,
I'm the last one standing...............

Where is the way?
I need to return to reality,
What is it that you say?
I can't see no gaiety.

I'm the last one to move,
Retracing every move,
Surviving every beating,
I'm the last one standing...............

Why am I all alone?
Why I got no one to speak to?
Where are you when I moan?
Where are you, When I need a shoulder to cry?

I'm the last one to move,
Retracing every move,
Surviving every beating,
I'm the last one standing...............

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Still feels like the First Exam of my Life.................

(Meaning of the Archaic words used: Mote: Might, May ; Maketh: Makes ; Art: Are ; I used them just because of my affinity towards them!)

As I sit at the examination table,
My mind starts to wander,
I recollect old stories and fables,
All those little bits tender,
The hall seems to fade away,
I'm looking at myself so young.

Still feels like the First Exam of my life.

Me, Holding a pencil, Scratching my hair,
With Vinod sitting next to me,
This ain't a sight so rare,
This is the one which I often see.
Never rode my neighbour's horse,
Such innocence , We mote never see.

Still feels like the First Exam of my life.

A bigger me comes to my mind,
Harish, Sharath, Faraaz by my side,
Copying, Cheating, an altogether new find,
Never letting it take its hold,
Close to my heart my friends I hold,
A heart with complexities, increased manifold.

Still feels like the First Exam of my life.

I find myself riding my neighbour's horse,
While lending my own to other's cause,
The dare in me maketh me lie,
Lie to my own broken conscience,
Even with Rohan,Rakesh, Sambhav,Piyush,
Struggle to mend our broken wills.

Still feels like the First Exam of my life.

And now, I realise the situation,
I'm at place with 4000 fellow nerds,
I'm at a place which is my dream realised,
And still I'm short of words,
Who art the shoulders I'll rest on forever,
And I look at my paper, and conclude:
DESTINY CHOSE THE REAPER.

Still feels like the First Exam of my life.

Friday, June 02, 2006

MEMORIES..........

Life keeps rollin' on,
Sometimes wanna break into a song,
Sometimes nothin' at all feels wrong,
Maybe it has been so long,
Since we've hit the gong.
Memories, Cease to leave,
Wanna manifest in every bit,
Tragedies, Bound to weave,
A bridge over all this shit.

Sometimes wanna take a break,
From this hectic life,
I'm sleepin, I wanna wake,
From this sickening slumber,
Its been a while, And I don't wanna fake,
Lets put an end to this.
Memories, Cease to leave,
Wanna manifest in every bit,
Tragedies, Bound to weave,
A bridge over all this shit.

Feel like leavin' you alone,
Leavin' all my fears, all my desires,
Behind, And get along, on my own,
The fire in me, Is still alive,
I can carry on, All alone,Though,
A helpin' hand, would be Heaven.
Memories, Cease to leave,
Wanna manifest in every bit,
Tragedies, Bound to weave,
A bridge over all this shit.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

I stand here.........

It feels like, I've been left alone,
In the middle of a desert,
With no one beside me,
And no one in sight,
I've been left in solitude,
With the sands for a companion.
I stand here, Bereaved of all my thoughts,
I stand here, As an alien to myself,
I stand here, All alone............

With the zephyr for food,
Sand for company, I beg for life,
To the scorchin' sun,
Pray for an oasis, in this cursed state.
I stand here, Bereaved of all my thoughts,
I stand here, As an alien to myself,
I stand here, All alone............

Seems like, I'm hangin' by a thread,
Above, A bed of thorns,
Thorns, Created by my own ignorance,
I feel so destituted, And I pray,
To the endless sky, Gimme life,
I stand here, Bereaved of all my thoughts,
I stand here, As an alien to myself,
I stand here, All alone............

HOPE.........

I'll be lost in the crowd,
Carried away by the wind,
Kicked around by fate,
Wasted away by time,
Broke open by the thing you call 'love',
But I never will lose hope.........

I'm not born to be a loser,
I'm born to win,
My destiny is awesome,
I'm gonna flash my teeth on TV,
You're gonna hold me at awe,

Every move I take, Will be for you,
I need to live my life for you,
I'm not gonna be a loser,
I'll grab the oppurtunity before it knocks,
on my door, The hope never dies..........

I was born as a country lad,
Never knew I'll make my people proud,
Didn't get a sign of my ability,
I'm gonna cry till the thoughts ceases to remain,
The hope never dies...........

When I'm with you.........

You were somethin', I'd always dreamt of,
My deepest truth, My worst fear,
My door was always open, You were always invited,
This madness is jus' drivin' me crazy,
When I'm with you, I feel the breeze,
Grazin' thro' my hair, Makin' me feel so cold,
Yearnin' for your love, So jus' don't deny me........

I closed my eyes, Do you think,
I saw you in my dreams, NO!,
How could I sleep, When this pain,
Is on a high, You still drive me crazy,
You make me insane, Jus' wanna hear your voice,
When I'm with you, I feel the breeze,
Grazin' thro' my hair, Makin' me feel so cold,
Yearnin' for your love, So jus' don't deny me........

Oasis of Hate............

Take my hand, Never to let go,
Walk with me, To always follow,
Speak the words I'm waitin' for,
I'm waitin' to catch all the words,
Everythin' that comes out of your mouth,
Don't leave me alone, deserted,
In this Oasis of Hate.........

Tell me what I've done,
Did I ever get close to hurtin' you,
Did you ever feel ignored or hated,
Coz I've felt this way, The words,
seemed so cruel, the place seems so filthy,
In this Oasis of Hate.........

I jus' tried to bounce, I got
it right in my face,
Can't deny, I was so insecure,
Waitin' for a love to come along,
Waitin' for an opportunity to knock
on my door,
In this Oasis of Hate,
I stand betrayed, Lonely,
In this Oasis of Hate.........

Friday, May 05, 2006

Still in love................(You=No one)

Baby, You bring out the best in me,
You get me doing things I can't,
I walk in the rain, drenched,
But my mind is not soiled.

Your hazel eyes remind me of the southern sky,
The picturesque nature comes to my mind,
The scenery of your face, so calm, so beautiful,
It jus' makes me want you more,
What can I do? I think I'm in love,
I'm in love with you, I'm still in love with you.........

So many years have passed, but we're still together,
Your face full of wrinkles, full of eternal beauty,
It still turns me on, to look at you,
Never regretted a moment, spent with you,
I'm still in love, with you..........

This note is from my grave, Whatever it might be,
You're by my side,
I need to thank god, We're still together,
We might be bones, Jus' bare skulls,
But I'm still in love with you...............

Mess!

Didn't know how I ended up in this mess,
It all happened too fast for me to grab it,
I was jus' gapin' with my mouth wide open,
I was jus' lookin' at her with all my passion,
She, Threw a glance at me, I could never forget,
She said I was a gem of a man,
Coz I was always right on the mark.
But now, I'm in a mess a mess a mess,
Entangled in those bushes of lust lust lust,
Oh God! I need to clear me from this mess...........

What am I supposed to do, When I see her lips shine,
Now I feel I'm outta control, So insecure,
I see her reachin' for my hand and dear!............
She, Threw a glance at me, I could never forget,
She said I was a gem of a man,
Coz I was always right on the mark.
But now, I'm in a mess a mess a mess,
Entangled in those bushes of lust lust lust,
Oh God! I need to clear me from this mess...........

I'm in this mess, I'm messed up...................

Golden Days.............

I don't feel like playin', I don't feel like hangin' out,
There's some paranoia inside me, It all started when you quit,
My life feels so bland, Without you by my side,
I try to remember the good old days, The Golden Days of my life,
Yeah! Was the times I spent with you................

This feelin' gets over my heart, Got no place to hide,
These thoughts, they make me miss you,
Never thought I'll feel this way,
My life feels so bland, Without you by my side,
I try to remember the good old days, The Golden Days of my life,
Yeah! Was the times I spent with you................

We were the closest of friends, The closest ever to my heart,
A gift from heaven, A piece of good luck,
I can't never regret meetin' you in my life,
Can only be drowned in happiness.........
My life feels so bland, Without you by my side,
I try to remember the good old days, The Golden Days of my life,
Yeah! Was the times I spent with you................

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

I miss you........(Especially Nishant..............)

An avalanche of thoughts runnin' thro' my head,
It doesn't make me wise, It makes me lonely,
A landslide of memories come crashin' down,
It sure doesn't make me happy, It makes me miss you.......

It has been a while, since we were together,
It has been really long, I can't hold it inside,
I jus' wanna run and meet you and hug you,
All thro' our bad times, We were together,
But now, I miss you.........

Our mischievious childhood,still feels so fresh,
I could do, With another bout of it,
I know we can't go back in time,
But I'm gonna relive all those days, In my head,
And now, I miss you........

Lookin' at our pictures, memories in print,
I feel like throwin' up the hatred all around,
You've been etched in my heart,
Like the stars up in the sky,
And then, I still miss you........

How can I forget, our lunches together,
Sharin' every bit we ever got,
Now, Nothin' fills me, as those bits we shared,
And all this, make me miss you,
And I, Jus' miss you..........

I feel this way............(I sure do!)

Have you ever felt this way,
When this feelin' doesn't go away,
Feel like forgettin the worries,
Puttin' to the back of your mind, the stories,
Have you ever felt so high,
When you would smile at jus' any guy,
Feel like stayin' here forever,
And ever n ever..............
Coz, baby I feel this way,
I don't wanna go away,
Wanna settle in this place,
Where there's so many a face,
That can't be put away.........

Have you ever been so lost,
That you never wanna be found,
Wanna disappear so fast,
Jus' wanna look around,
Have you ever been so happy,
That you forget how to cry,
I sure feel this whacky,
I bet you wanna try,
Being me............
Coz, baby I feel this way,
I don't wanna go away,
Wanna settle in this place,
Where there's so many a face,
That can't be put away.........

I feel this way for sure,
I wanna stay for sure,
Happiness is ME.................

I'll make you mend your ways........(Yeah, I will, if you are my friend.........!)

Hop along, I'll teach you somethin',
Stay aside, and you'll learn somethin',
Don't make me control you,
You know I can handle you,
I'll make you mend your ways,
I'll guide you with my gaze,
You know I care for you,
You can't deny, It's true.

My strong will, My deep thinkin',
Will follow your dreams,
No compromise, No slackening,
We gotta pursue your dreams,
And I'll be right there,
I'll make you mend your ways,
And I'll kill your laze,
I'll guide you thro,
Every stinkin' groove........

I'll make you mend your ways,
Till I see my grave,
There's no lookin' back,
I'll make you mend your ways........................

The god that gives...........(Believe in the power above, not religions..........)

Immobilisin' me, from head to toe,
This pain is more than I can take,
Never thought I'll feel this way,
If god wills, I'll never be the same,
If god tries, I'll jus' be better,
Nothin' is in my hands, pray to the lord.

Consumin' me, from the insides,
I've got the will, he won't let me down,
I can get thro' this, without a scratch,
All this would be jus' a memory.........
I jus' wanna wake up, wanna get rid of this dream,
If god wills, I'll never be the same,
If god tries, I'll jus' be better,
Nothin' is in my hands, pray to the lord.

Some attitude, is all I need, to get thro' this,
Jus' wanna wash my face, forget all of this,
Wanna wake up fresh, fresher than ever,
Jus' wanna so justice to time, wanna make love to the stars above.......
If god wills, I'll never be the same,
If god tries, I'll jus' be better,
Nothin' is in my hands, pray to the lord.

Pray to him, Don't take his name,
Address him from the insides,
He'll protect us from all harm,
Believe, Trust in him.......................

Divine Love........(Well, love is indeed divine, but I'm stressin' on divine coz........)

I feel the sweet passion,
I smell the waftin' fragrance,
I taste the truth, about you and me,
As I walk this way, everyday,
I taste the divine love, Runnin' in my blood,
I feel it, openin' the wounds,
Makin' it go, until I get healed,
The divine love, So sweet and pure.

I want to touch the sky,
I need to feel you,
I wanna get it right, tonight,
This is the limit, I can tolerate,
As I walk this way, everyday,
I taste the divine love, Runnin' in my blood,
I feel it, openin' the wounds,
Makin' it go, until I get healed,
The divine love, So sweet and pure.

The divine love, feels so scarce.
The divine love, is hard to find,
The divine love, has many faces,
The divine love, surrounds me..............

Rock you, all night.........(A Balladic mood stirrin' inside me!!)

How does it feel, to be close,
So close, no matter how much,
Hearts together, Souls together,
How should I feel, When....
I'm gonna rock you, all night,
Till it, feels right,
Gonna make you, sweat now,
Till your best shows......

Do you feel right,
I don't want to,
Coz I'm gonna rock you, all night,
Till it, feels right,
Gonna make you, sweat now,
Till your best shows......

How does it seem,When you look at me,
I'm tryin' to catch my breath,
We're together, nothin' else matters,
How should it seem, when,
I'm gonna rock you, all night,
Till it, feels right,
Gonna make you, sweat now,
Till your best shows......

Do you feel right,
I don't want to,
Coz I'm gonna rock you, all night,
Till it, feels right,
Gonna make you, sweat now,
Till your best shows......

Make you, mine now,
I don't care about anythin',
I'm gonna rock you.........

ME!!!(All my dear friends are like me too!)

I dunno why you wanna be, so condescendin',
I jus' can't take anymore of this bendin',
This crap would only lead to my breakage,
But I'm sure, I'll raise up again from the wreckage.
Well, That's the kind of confidence breedin',
I jus' need to uproot some evil, and do some weedin',
I know I can be so positive,
And still be so decisive.
And that's what I am, in a nutshell,
Try to break me, into micelles,
I'll take you, for a hard ride,
In the green, horizon wide.

Well, that's the shape of my character,
I'm like a phoenix, a ressurector,
I'll wake up from the ashes,
Without any burns or rashes.
Well, That's the kind of confidence breedin',
I jus' need to uproot some evil, and do some weedin',
I know I can be so positive,
And still be so decisive.
And that's what I am, in a nutshell,
Try to break me, into micelles,
I'll take you, for a hard ride,
In the green, horizon wide.

That's Me.......................

Once and for all.................

I stand here between angels and demons,
All I ever wanted to do, was to stay a while,
And, I pray to him, Jus' to gimme some more time,
On this turf, which I call Home.
I pray to him, as I've never prayed before,
All I want, is to stay for some more time,
Wanna set, my things right,
Jus' once and for all.........

I stand here, on the gates of heaven,
Jus' a few moments, and I'll be in,
And, I cry, Jus' to gimme some more time,
On this place, which I call my own.
I pray to him, as I've never prayed before,
All I want, is to stay for some more time,
Wanna set, my things right,
Jus' once and for all.........

I stand alone, waitin' for this transition,
When I'll become an angel,
I'm sure to mend all my ways,
And leave my sins behind.
But now,
I pray to him, as I've never prayed before,
All I want, is to stay for some more time,
Wanna set, my things right,
Jus' once and for all.........

Once and for all...........................

Silent Gratification............(For all my friends......)

Holdin' your hands, close to my heart,
I confess all that I've done,
Acting, like a makeshift sinner,
I tell you everythin' I know,
And the way you say, its okay,
the way I decipher, its fine,
This is, Silent Gratification, My Greatest Satisfaction.

I act as if, I can take all the pain,
Without convulsions or any complaints,
I'm actin' like a made liar,
You know very well, I'm not me, Without You beside me.......
I tell you everythin' I know,
And the way you say, its okay,
the way I decipher, its fine,
This is, Silent Gratification, My Greatest Satisfaction.

This love that we share,
Emulsifies the hours together,
I wanna be a true Lover,
I end up being a wannabe dreamer.........
I tell you everythin' I know,
And the way you say, its okay,
the way I decipher, its fine,
This is, Silent Gratification, My Greatest Satisfaction.

Never Forget............

Lyin' awake, observing the ceiling
tryna evoke my senses
thinkin' about all that has happened to me
hapless, listless, lost in thoughts
Never forget all that u've endured
Never forget all that has gone by
Never forget the dreams we dreamt
Never forget a face to be remembered

Sittin' alone, gapin at the crowd
tryna emote all that has past
thinkin' about everything that makes an impression
nostalgic, feelin so full
Never forget all that u faced
Never forget your trysts with infatuations
Never forget your true loves
Never forget a truth that hurts

Idlin' away, watchin our pictures
tryna live, those days again
the good times freshen my mind
helpless, but filled to the brim
Never forget the friends u had
Never forget the moments we shared
Never forget our meetings
Never forget our evolution
Never forget what's meant to be remembered

Never forget.............ME.............!!