Wreath of destruction..............

As darkness engulfs me,
I feel bad, I feel sad, I feel god-damn high,
As I get my feelings back,
I feel pain, I feel heat, I feel god-damn high,

This is the wreath of destruction,
That I'm wearing,
This is the wrath of fornication,
That I'm facing...........

As I think of her,
I feel hate, I feel heat, I feel god-damn hot,
As I think of all I've done,
I feel low, I feel shame, I feel god-damn hot,

This is the wreath of destruction,
That I'm wearing,
This is the wrath of fornication,
That I'm facing...........

As day takes over,
I feel light, It feels bright, I feel god-damn good,
As the light shines,
I feel warm, I feel right, I feel god-damn good,

Burn, the wreath of destruction,
Ambush, the wrath of fornication............

Last One Standing.......

Where have I been lately?
What is it that I can't see?
Couldn't I have returned safely?
Why can't I be, Where I want to be?

I'm the last one to move,
Retracing every move,
Surviving every beating,
I'm the last one standing...............

Where is the way?
I need to return to reality,
What is it that you say?
I can't see no gaiety.

I'm the last one to move,
Retracing every move,
Surviving every beating,
I'm the last one standing...............

Why am I all alone?
Why I got no one to speak to?
Where are you when I moan?
Where are you, When I need a shoulder to cry?

I'm the last one to move,
Retracing every move,
Surviving every beating,
I'm the last one standing...............

Still feels like the First Exam of my Life.................

(Meaning of the Archaic words used: Mote: Might, May ; Maketh: Makes ; Art: Are ; I used them just because of my affinity towards them!)

As I sit at the examination table,
My mind starts to wander,
I recollect old stories and fables,
All those little bits tender,
The hall seems to fade away,
I'm looking at myself so young.

Still feels like the First Exam of my life.

Me, Holding a pencil, Scratching my hair,
With Vinod sitting next to me,
This ain't a sight so rare,
This is the one which I often see.
Never rode my neighbour's horse,
Such innocence , We mote never see.

Still feels like the First Exam of my life.

A bigger me comes to my mind,
Harish, Sharath, Faraaz by my side,
Copying, Cheating, an altogether new find,
Never letting it take its hold,
Close to my heart my friends I hold,
A heart with complexities, increased manifold.

Still feels like the First Exam of my life.

I find myself riding my neighbour's horse,
While lending my own to other's cause,
The dare in me maketh me lie,
Lie to my own broken conscience,
Even with Rohan,Rakesh, Sambhav,Piyush,
Struggle to mend our broken wills.

Still feels like the First Exam of my life.

And now, I realise the situation,
I'm at place with 4000 fellow nerds,
I'm at a place which is my dream realised,
And still I'm short of words,
Who art the shoulders I'll rest on forever,
And I look at my paper, and conclude:
DESTINY CHOSE THE REAPER.

Still feels like the First Exam of my life.

MEMORIES..........

Life keeps rollin' on,
Sometimes wanna break into a song,
Sometimes nothin' at all feels wrong,
Maybe it has been so long,
Since we've hit the gong.
Memories, Cease to leave,
Wanna manifest in every bit,
Tragedies, Bound to weave,
A bridge over all this shit.

Sometimes wanna take a break,
From this hectic life,
I'm sleepin, I wanna wake,
From this sickening slumber,
Its been a while, And I don't wanna fake,
Lets put an end to this.
Memories, Cease to leave,
Wanna manifest in every bit,
Tragedies, Bound to weave,
A bridge over all this shit.

Feel like leavin' you alone,
Leavin' all my fears, all my desires,
Behind, And get along, on my own,
The fire in me, Is still alive,
I can carry on, All alone,Though,
A helpin' hand, would be Heaven.
Memories, Cease to leave,
Wanna manifest in every bit,
Tragedies, Bound to weave,
A bridge over all this shit.

I stand here.........

It feels like, I've been left alone,
In the middle of a desert,
With no one beside me,
And no one in sight,
I've been left in solitude,
With the sands for a companion.
I stand here, Bereaved of all my thoughts,
I stand here, As an alien to myself,
I stand here, All alone............

With the zephyr for food,
Sand for company, I beg for life,
To the scorchin' sun,
Pray for an oasis, in this cursed state.
I stand here, Bereaved of all my thoughts,
I stand here, As an alien to myself,
I stand here, All alone............

Seems like, I'm hangin' by a thread,
Above, A bed of thorns,
Thorns, Created by my own ignorance,
I feel so destituted, And I pray,
To the endless sky, Gimme life,
I stand here, Bereaved of all my thoughts,
I stand here, As an alien to myself,
I stand here, All alone............

HOPE.........

I'll be lost in the crowd,
Carried away by the wind,
Kicked around by fate,
Wasted away by time,
Broke open by the thing you call 'love',
But I never will lose hope.........

I'm not born to be a loser,
I'm born to win,
My destiny is awesome,
I'm gonna flash my teeth on TV,
You're gonna hold me at awe,

Every move I take, Will be for you,
I need to live my life for you,
I'm not gonna be a loser,
I'll grab the oppurtunity before it knocks,
on my door, The hope never dies..........

I was born as a country lad,
Never knew I'll make my people proud,
Didn't get a sign of my ability,
I'm gonna cry till the thoughts ceases to remain,
The hope never dies...........

When I'm with you.........

You were somethin', I'd always dreamt of,
My deepest truth, My worst fear,
My door was always open, You were always invited,
This madness is jus' drivin' me crazy,
When I'm with you, I feel the breeze,
Grazin' thro' my hair, Makin' me feel so cold,
Yearnin' for your love, So jus' don't deny me........

I closed my eyes, Do you think,
I saw you in my dreams, NO!,
How could I sleep, When this pain,
Is on a high, You still drive me crazy,
You make me insane, Jus' wanna hear your voice,
When I'm with you, I feel the breeze,
Grazin' thro' my hair, Makin' me feel so cold,
Yearnin' for your love, So jus' don't deny me........

Oasis of Hate............

Take my hand, Never to let go,
Walk with me, To always follow,
Speak the words I'm waitin' for,
I'm waitin' to catch all the words,
Everythin' that comes out of your mouth,
Don't leave me alone, deserted,
In this Oasis of Hate.........

Tell me what I've done,
Did I ever get close to hurtin' you,
Did you ever feel ignored or hated,
Coz I've felt this way, The words,
seemed so cruel, the place seems so filthy,
In this Oasis of Hate.........

I jus' tried to bounce, I got
it right in my face,
Can't deny, I was so insecure,
Waitin' for a love to come along,
Waitin' for an opportunity to knock
on my door,
In this Oasis of Hate,
I stand betrayed, Lonely,
In this Oasis of Hate.........

Still in love................(You=No one)

Baby, You bring out the best in me,
You get me doing things I can't,
I walk in the rain, drenched,
But my mind is not soiled.

Your hazel eyes remind me of the southern sky,
The picturesque nature comes to my mind,
The scenery of your face, so calm, so beautiful,
It jus' makes me want you more,
What can I do? I think I'm in love,
I'm in love with you, I'm still in love with you.........

So many years have passed, but we're still together,
Your face full of wrinkles, full of eternal beauty,
It still turns me on, to look at you,
Never regretted a moment, spent with you,
I'm still in love, with you..........

This note is from my grave, Whatever it might be,
You're by my side,
I need to thank god, We're still together,
We might be bones, Jus' bare skulls,
But I'm still in love with you...............

Mess!

Didn't know how I ended up in this mess,
It all happened too fast for me to grab it,
I was jus' gapin' with my mouth wide open,
I was jus' lookin' at her with all my passion,
She, Threw a glance at me, I could never forget,
She said I was a gem of a man,
Coz I was always right on the mark.
But now, I'm in a mess a mess a mess,
Entangled in those bushes of lust lust lust,
Oh God! I need to clear me from this mess...........

What am I supposed to do, When I see her lips shine,
Now I feel I'm outta control, So insecure,
I see her reachin' for my hand and dear!............
She, Threw a glance at me, I could never forget,
She said I was a gem of a man,
Coz I was always right on the mark.
But now, I'm in a mess a mess a mess,
Entangled in those bushes of lust lust lust,
Oh God! I need to clear me from this mess...........

I'm in this mess, I'm messed up...................

Golden Days.............

I don't feel like playin', I don't feel like hangin' out,
There's some paranoia inside me, It all started when you quit,
My life feels so bland, Without you by my side,
I try to remember the good old days, The Golden Days of my life,
Yeah! Was the times I spent with you................

This feelin' gets over my heart, Got no place to hide,
These thoughts, they make me miss you,
Never thought I'll feel this way,
My life feels so bland, Without you by my side,
I try to remember the good old days, The Golden Days of my life,
Yeah! Was the times I spent with you................

We were the closest of friends, The closest ever to my heart,
A gift from heaven, A piece of good luck,
I can't never regret meetin' you in my life,
Can only be drowned in happiness.........
My life feels so bland, Without you by my side,
I try to remember the good old days, The Golden Days of my life,
Yeah! Was the times I spent with you................

I miss you........(Especially Nishant..............)

An avalanche of thoughts runnin' thro' my head,
It doesn't make me wise, It makes me lonely,
A landslide of memories come crashin' down,
It sure doesn't make me happy, It makes me miss you.......

It has been a while, since we were together,
It has been really long, I can't hold it inside,
I jus' wanna run and meet you and hug you,
All thro' our bad times, We were together,
But now, I miss you.........

Our mischievious childhood,still feels so fresh,
I could do, With another bout of it,
I know we can't go back in time,
But I'm gonna relive all those days, In my head,
And now, I miss you........

Lookin' at our pictures, memories in print,
I feel like throwin' up the hatred all around,
You've been etched in my heart,
Like the stars up in the sky,
And then, I still miss you........

How can I forget, our lunches together,
Sharin' every bit we ever got,
Now, Nothin' fills me, as those bits we shared,
And all this, make me miss you,
And I, Jus' miss you..........

I feel this way............(I sure do!)

Have you ever felt this way,
When this feelin' doesn't go away,
Feel like forgettin the worries,
Puttin' to the back of your mind, the stories,
Have you ever felt so high,
When you would smile at jus' any guy,
Feel like stayin' here forever,
And ever n ever..............
Coz, baby I feel this way,
I don't wanna go away,
Wanna settle in this place,
Where there's so many a face,
That can't be put away.........

Have you ever been so lost,
That you never wanna be found,
Wanna disappear so fast,
Jus' wanna look around,
Have you ever been so happy,
That you forget how to cry,
I sure feel this whacky,
I bet you wanna try,
Being me............
Coz, baby I feel this way,
I don't wanna go away,
Wanna settle in this place,
Where there's so many a face,
That can't be put away.........

I feel this way for sure,
I wanna stay for sure,
Happiness is ME.................

I'll make you mend your ways........(Yeah, I will, if you are my friend.........!)

Hop along, I'll teach you somethin',
Stay aside, and you'll learn somethin',
Don't make me control you,
You know I can handle you,
I'll make you mend your ways,
I'll guide you with my gaze,
You know I care for you,
You can't deny, It's true.

My strong will, My deep thinkin',
Will follow your dreams,
No compromise, No slackening,
We gotta pursue your dreams,
And I'll be right there,
I'll make you mend your ways,
And I'll kill your laze,
I'll guide you thro,
Every stinkin' groove........

I'll make you mend your ways,
Till I see my grave,
There's no lookin' back,
I'll make you mend your ways........................

The god that gives...........(Believe in the power above, not religions..........)

Immobilisin' me, from head to toe,
This pain is more than I can take,
Never thought I'll feel this way,
If god wills, I'll never be the same,
If god tries, I'll jus' be better,
Nothin' is in my hands, pray to the lord.

Consumin' me, from the insides,
I've got the will, he won't let me down,
I can get thro' this, without a scratch,
All this would be jus' a memory.........
I jus' wanna wake up, wanna get rid of this dream,
If god wills, I'll never be the same,
If god tries, I'll jus' be better,
Nothin' is in my hands, pray to the lord.

Some attitude, is all I need, to get thro' this,
Jus' wanna wash my face, forget all of this,
Wanna wake up fresh, fresher than ever,
Jus' wanna so justice to time, wanna make love to the stars above.......
If god wills, I'll never be the same,
If god tries, I'll jus' be better,
Nothin' is in my hands, pray to the lord.

Pray to him, Don't take his name,
Address him from the insides,
He'll protect us from all harm,
Believe, Trust in him.......................

Divine Love........(Well, love is indeed divine, but I'm stressin' on divine coz........)

I feel the sweet passion,
I smell the waftin' fragrance,
I taste the truth, about you and me,
As I walk this way, everyday,
I taste the divine love, Runnin' in my blood,
I feel it, openin' the wounds,
Makin' it go, until I get healed,
The divine love, So sweet and pure.

I want to touch the sky,
I need to feel you,
I wanna get it right, tonight,
This is the limit, I can tolerate,
As I walk this way, everyday,
I taste the divine love, Runnin' in my blood,
I feel it, openin' the wounds,
Makin' it go, until I get healed,
The divine love, So sweet and pure.

The divine love, feels so scarce.
The divine love, is hard to find,
The divine love, has many faces,
The divine love, surrounds me..............

Rock you, all night.........(A Balladic mood stirrin' inside me!!)

How does it feel, to be close,
So close, no matter how much,
Hearts together, Souls together,
How should I feel, When....
I'm gonna rock you, all night,
Till it, feels right,
Gonna make you, sweat now,
Till your best shows......

Do you feel right,
I don't want to,
Coz I'm gonna rock you, all night,
Till it, feels right,
Gonna make you, sweat now,
Till your best shows......

How does it seem,When you look at me,
I'm tryin' to catch my breath,
We're together, nothin' else matters,
How should it seem, when,
I'm gonna rock you, all night,
Till it, feels right,
Gonna make you, sweat now,
Till your best shows......

Do you feel right,
I don't want to,
Coz I'm gonna rock you, all night,
Till it, feels right,
Gonna make you, sweat now,
Till your best shows......

Make you, mine now,
I don't care about anythin',
I'm gonna rock you.........

ME!!!(All my dear friends are like me too!)

I dunno why you wanna be, so condescendin',
I jus' can't take anymore of this bendin',
This crap would only lead to my breakage,
But I'm sure, I'll raise up again from the wreckage.
Well, That's the kind of confidence breedin',
I jus' need to uproot some evil, and do some weedin',
I know I can be so positive,
And still be so decisive.
And that's what I am, in a nutshell,
Try to break me, into micelles,
I'll take you, for a hard ride,
In the green, horizon wide.

Well, that's the shape of my character,
I'm like a phoenix, a ressurector,
I'll wake up from the ashes,
Without any burns or rashes.
Well, That's the kind of confidence breedin',
I jus' need to uproot some evil, and do some weedin',
I know I can be so positive,
And still be so decisive.
And that's what I am, in a nutshell,
Try to break me, into micelles,
I'll take you, for a hard ride,
In the green, horizon wide.

That's Me.......................

Once and for all.................

I stand here between angels and demons,
All I ever wanted to do, was to stay a while,
And, I pray to him, Jus' to gimme some more time,
On this turf, which I call Home.
I pray to him, as I've never prayed before,
All I want, is to stay for some more time,
Wanna set, my things right,
Jus' once and for all.........

I stand here, on the gates of heaven,
Jus' a few moments, and I'll be in,
And, I cry, Jus' to gimme some more time,
On this place, which I call my own.
I pray to him, as I've never prayed before,
All I want, is to stay for some more time,
Wanna set, my things right,
Jus' once and for all.........

I stand alone, waitin' for this transition,
When I'll become an angel,
I'm sure to mend all my ways,
And leave my sins behind.
But now,
I pray to him, as I've never prayed before,
All I want, is to stay for some more time,
Wanna set, my things right,
Jus' once and for all.........

Once and for all...........................

Silent Gratification............(For all my friends......)

Holdin' your hands, close to my heart,
I confess all that I've done,
Acting, like a makeshift sinner,
I tell you everythin' I know,
And the way you say, its okay,
the way I decipher, its fine,
This is, Silent Gratification, My Greatest Satisfaction.

I act as if, I can take all the pain,
Without convulsions or any complaints,
I'm actin' like a made liar,
You know very well, I'm not me, Without You beside me.......
I tell you everythin' I know,
And the way you say, its okay,
the way I decipher, its fine,
This is, Silent Gratification, My Greatest Satisfaction.

This love that we share,
Emulsifies the hours together,
I wanna be a true Lover,
I end up being a wannabe dreamer.........
I tell you everythin' I know,
And the way you say, its okay,
the way I decipher, its fine,
This is, Silent Gratification, My Greatest Satisfaction.

Never Forget............

Lyin' awake, observing the ceiling
tryna evoke my senses
thinkin' about all that has happened to me
hapless, listless, lost in thoughts
Never forget all that u've endured
Never forget all that has gone by
Never forget the dreams we dreamt
Never forget a face to be remembered

Sittin' alone, gapin at the crowd
tryna emote all that has past
thinkin' about everything that makes an impression
nostalgic, feelin so full
Never forget all that u faced
Never forget your trysts with infatuations
Never forget your true loves
Never forget a truth that hurts

Idlin' away, watchin our pictures
tryna live, those days again
the good times freshen my mind
helpless, but filled to the brim
Never forget the friends u had
Never forget the moments we shared
Never forget our meetings
Never forget our evolution
Never forget what's meant to be remembered

Never forget.............ME.............!!